There is SO much hate in my heart right now.


I hate you, Cams. I hate you because you destroyed what the kada had with Angge. You took every single thing away. Everything changed when you came. And I hate you because of that. I hate you for not stopping Angge from drinking (putangina mo ikaw pa nga nag eencourage). I hate you for calling her stupid and cursing her. I hate you for taking advantage of her kindness. I hate you for never paying for anything and letting Angge take care of it all. I hate you for having left them in Galleria late last Saturday without even trying to get them a cab. I hate you for calling Kata inconsiderate and for not minding your own business. All this boils down to one thing. And that is... I HATE YOU. I hate you more than I hate my Geom teacher or my Pinoi teacher. Do you realize how much hate that is? I suhwear I want to strangle you. I WANT YOU TO GO AWAY. I wish ya'll never met. I hate you.


For Angge..
I love you very much Angge but I am sorry. I can't take anymore of this. Give up na ko. I find it pointless to still be friends with you when in reality, you KNOW I do not approve of Cams. You feel awkward opening up about what happens between the two of you. I don't think there's anything I can do to be a better friend but this. Maybe keeping distance will actually be better because then you wouldn't have to worry about someone who is mad at you or not minding you. You know you made me see how cold I can get. And you also made me realize that my heart can shun even those who occupy big spaces in it. You have proved true that love is blinding. You are blind. You're totally blocked from the truth. There's a powerful yet invisible wall stopping you from seeing the real nature of things. You can no longer distinguish right from wrong. But there are a few people who can. And those few people are your friends.. the audience. Keep in mind that it's your friends that matter the most. They will always, always, ALWAYS be by your side. They'll never dump you when things go wrong. They can make you happy like NO ONE else ever did. Friends are the real deal.


And although I've given up on you, I still would like to wish you the best in life. May you have people to run when things go terribly wrong. May you never feel forsaken or alone. May you find a guy who will love you and make you happy.. Amen.